I wrote this song a year ago. I had just started the trial and error period of my bipolar treatment at Saint Paul’s hospital, and I slept more than I was awake. I truly felt like everything was falling apart: my band, my relationship, my ability to support myself financially. With every new medication, my hopes of “getting better” were renewed. I thought that when I got better, everything would be different. I would suddenly become calm and wise, like Oprah, or an owl. Obviously, this version of “better” never arrived. I learned that getting better is actually a day to day thing. There are good days and bad days. But here I am, one year later, in a very nice relationship, with a great place to live and a full-length solo album on the way! Thank you to everyone who helped me get here, and to cymk productions and Shevaughn Ruley for helping make this live video.
And to everyone who is struggling with a chronic mental illness:
“It doesn’t go away. You just learn how to live with it.” - Douglas Coupland
And you WILL learn how to live with it.